A new year and a new direction

2010.

Hard to believe that another decade has just slipped by.

Does anyone here believe in new years resolutions? not me.

I decided to write in this blog again mainly after speaking to James and Katherine. I had felt pretty uninspired to write in here as I thought that no one was reading it, so why continue? I was surprised to hear them ask about it, as i thought it had been forgotten. So here we are, and I'm writing, with absolutely no direction and no knowledge of what to write about so.....

I'm going to start from the beginning. Or perhaps from the end and work my way backwards?

I will be turning 30 in a couple of months time (less than that actually - in all of 40ish days). As I feel myself approaching this momentous birthday, I feel myself becoming more of an 'adult' as if closing the door on the 'noughties' is like laying the past behind me. I like the idea of closing the door on an era, and looking with excitement towards the next one. When I am in the right mindframe the world seems simply alive with possibilities. I feel as though this upcoming decade will hold a new direction for me (well, at least i hope so). Perhaps part of getting older is realising that your time on earth is finite - and that you have to make the most of the here and now. That you have to take a few risks in order to fulfill your dreams. I guess all of us are bound by limits of one kind or another (those that you place on yourself, in particular). For instance, I find it really hard to believe that people like me or want to be my friend. I think we've you've been burnt so many times it makes you cautious. I'm trying to move away from that mindset and take a risk or two, because I enjoy the company of others and I don't want to be alone. I really enjoyed my time down in Christchurch recently (despite the family dramas that were going on at the time) because I was always surrounded by others. And by people who cared about me and who knew me. It was so nice just to always have someone around to talk to. I can't wait to have a family of my own.

So on that note I should probably get off my computer and do something constructive.

One more thing - I need help with writing this blog and any inspiration you guys can give me in terms of what to write about I would be most grateful! I need a writing challenge. So topics, ideas, questions, anything - let me know!